My Place (Revisited).

Some time ago I wrote a post that I entitled something along the lines of “My Place” and it’s something I feel like I need to recover. The theme of the post was managing stress and with a lot of crazy going on in the world and no decline in global stress levels, we all could use with a good way to deal with it. I am not saying this is a good way or the right way to deal with stress, it is however my way and I hope by sharing it anyone reading this can find the best way they manage stress…

“My place” are two words commonly used to refer to ones home, “Do you want to come back/over to my place?” being the most common phrasing they’re used in. I use them this way like most people, but I also use them in a way all my own. I still use them in reference to a place of my own, but this place isn’t a home or even a physical space/building for that fact. I use “my place” to describe a head space.

My place is visual headspace I go to when I am starting to stress out or when I need to focus on something. Almost like a form of meditation I push everything out of my mind, close my eyes and no matter where I am or what’s going on around me I can have some time to my self to gather my thoughts.

When I first chose my place I had to chose carefully. In the end I went with a beach I’ve been going to since I was a child. My family and I have gone to this beach for as far back as I can remember, but I chose this beach not because of any sentimental value holds but because of how extremely peaceful it can be. At night I can go there, sit on a bench and just  listen to the crash of the waves  with nothing but my thoughts to keep me company. It’s impossible to go there and not feel calm. When ever I go there it’s as if my problems just wash away with the tide and in that moment…

I can just be me.

I’m ready for it to be over.

It’s exam time here in Australia. Yesterday more than 40,000 Australian year 12 students, including myself sat down to do their first exam for the last time. Apart from those who do language studies, Music or any other kind of performance exam and those who just don’t do the subject, the very first exam is English. Three glorious hours of writing trying to put together something that at least resembles three different kinds of essays. Needless to say it’s just a touch stressing. However in most cases English is the easy part, the calm before the storm. That however is A LOT stressing.

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To be honest I’m COMPLETELY ready for all of this to be over. If I could I would turn time forward and would skip doing exams altogether. I want to get the best possible score I can and be able to do the course I want, but the stress is just too real. On occasion we’re told to do the best we can possibly do and to not stress if we don’t get a high score but at times that’s easier said than done. Going into this year I personally (and probably a number other year 12 students) set goals for my self that I thought were reasonable and obtainable and as my remaining exams draw closer I can tell you for a fact that I’m not going to achieve a few of them and that sucks. A LOT.

Don’t get me wrong, I have enjoyed school. I have made friends, experienced wonderful things and learned more than I thought I would. School is NOT as bad as I have made it out to be in previous posts, it was just the right amount of stressful for me personally. School is what you make it; you get out of it what you put in. If you’re not ready to put in the time and effort it takes to do well it’s just not going to happen, and that’s no one else’s fault but ours. Not doing well in school has come down to the decisions I made and I will have to live with that. However I refuse to let it keep me down.

It’s entirely possible that I’m not going to get a high enough score to comfortably get me into the University course I want, but I’m ready to work. I know what I want and as long as it may take me I WILL get there.

Quick tip: To anyone going into year 12 in the coming years, BE PREPARED. Organise your work, develop a good study habit and knuckle down and get stuff done. It may be a struggle and sacrificing things may have to happen but if you prepare your self early come exam time you won’t be so caught off guard.